labellasthoughts

The power of choice & realization

2011-12-12T21:46:00.002+08:00

Is time to make a choice if I want to bring life I must die to what I love.. if I want to leave up a legacy I need to give up comfort and what I think is so important for me..... the question is would I be able to do it?

Conquered.......

2010-09-20T03:42:00.006+08:00

Yup it was after my trip to Thailand and I saw this photos.... oh my oh my... I started and realized I need a life changing experience... and the weight will NOT come off, for 3 months I have been working out pretty much every single time I have off and the weight has dropped only 6 KGM........ YET I have learned soo much about my body and love.- Love to Self, amazingly enough I have come to realized that a lot of my weight gain is rooted in not being able to love myself ....GOD LOVES ME... I accept and somewhat understand that .... Frank loves me... mmm hard one to understand yet God has taken me into this journey of exploring the reason why I can't accept my body and more than that LOVE it.....

My personal Trainer James, often tells me "YOU CAN DO IT" mmmm I have been amazed to see how much this AMAZING body can do... Thank you God for having this body, for years I haven't been able to say that this is a breakthrough........ the weight will come off as I learn to live a life of smart choices and healthy planning..... YET I AM CONTENT for what I've learned... still have a long way to go and again I have to realized that this choices are not just short term but a long life decision!!!

Love life...live for LIVE!!!

The try out......

2010-05-16T01:13:00.004+08:00

All started back in December when I begun to watch "The biggest loser Asia" I was shock to see that people had the guts to go on TV and show their bodies I mean huge bodies... it sounded interesting so I kept on watching... somehow I begun to realize man I live such an unhealthy life... I don't sleep too much, I ate whenever I want and sometimes whatever I want... I think God begun to speak to me slowly about "HEALTH" it was not to start a new diet, which I did many times and it worked just for a little bit...

I realized that I needed to take care of my body if I wanted to keep going and be in the mission field... well I begun to look for a GYM ... went to many places I think I have visited most of HK GYM by now... The best in TST overlooking the harbour...my goodness the prices was $1,000 HKD per month... I thought If I have to change my life I must do something but it might cost a lot I got discouraged!
I asked them for a Corporation discount and they will give me $50 HKD per month...mmm not much... I went to California Fitness and they said they will give us 55 % off if we have over 11 people........... so......everything starts here:

April 24th marked a day in my life, I have been feeling so hopeless about my weight and the way I was feeling I was getting sick often and it just seemed almost impossible to move ( that's how I felt any way) I joined the GYM thinking I would enjoy the nice shower, sauna & maybe once in a while do some excersice ... it has been almost 2 years since I injured my foot in Kona doing power jumps so my body was completely out of shape............... I enjoyed the byke but most of the cardio machine gave me pain on my foot or knee... so Frank suggested to get a Personal Trainer ?!?!?! I was shock and mostly AFRAID... He believe I will learn how to work out and I will get more out of the GYM .....so he paid = ) and I begun this adventure of going to the GYM 5 times a week and twice having a personal trainer........ I must say I am loving it.... I=my body is slowly changing I feel much better and I love the workouts.......I couldn't do 10 minutes in level 1 on the byke now I do 60minutes in level 8 no problem... God has been soo much part of this I dont want to do anothe DIET I want to live healthy and I want to help other to live that way.... it's amazing to see how much emphasis we put on the SPIRIT and not in our BODY but God is slowly teaching me the importance of having a healthy life!

I am afraid to fall YES...and many times I do I FALL but I know that I am in a journey that God is leading me on... not Atkins, or south beach or no sugar or milkshakes NO I want to live like this for the rest of my life....... BUT the question is AM I ABLE TO DO IT??????????

I am writing this blog for my self today when I see my body changing and maybe come back in a few months and remind myself that I CAN DO THIS and that being overweight is NOT part of God's plan for my life and that is possible to live a HEALTHY LIFE......

Off to sleep.............

Un mundo diferente!?

2010-03-01T00:18:00.003+08:00

A different world..

Many people told me "Marriage is hard" specially the first 12 months :) and yes is difficult but Oh is soo good! Is good to not go to sleep alone and to have someone to share and to talk and to argue and to discuss and to cry and to pray and to laugh and to tease and to...........uggh Sharing is beautiful! Humans were made to share!

2010 has been a rough time and not because of marriage but bc everything around seems like a big blur and Trusting God is taking everything that is within me to really believe that there's a way out.........

I would like to help people...people in distress, slavery, darkness, sadness, hopeless, I WANT TO GO WHERE THE POOR & NEEDY ARE.............

De tu verdad YO saciarme!

2010-02-02T16:44:00.002+08:00

Ultimamente me he sentido tan lejos de Dios y tan alejada de la verdad de su corazon y de la libertad de lo que Jesus es, de la simpleza de escuchar su sencillo y tierno wisper in my heart.... busy schedules and people can sometimes robar lo que realmente Jesus es!

2010... The year of the unknown!!!

2010-01-21T01:06:00.004+08:00

Well we have been in 2010 for 21 days already I must say that it has not been the greatest start of the Year, I found a old journal from 2006 and realized though how good God is with me!

My heart always worry about things ahead, people, weight, etc... hubby does bring a huge sense of calmness when everything around seems to be spinning around.

My life is quite different from those years when i was alone now I have a husband and 14 people that trust me and sometimes requires a lot from me... I have been feeling tired and with much to do... I hope on our little trip to Thailand God speaks to me... I want to hear God and see His power.... sometimes we are more evident of the enemy than we are of God... sad.. :{

The future looks cloudy and uncertain YET is another possibility for God to show who He is to us... THE CHILDREN!

me.......

The struggle......

2009-07-24T23:12:00.002+08:00

15 years of struggle ....................days of being pump up to start something new, something different, something relevant that worked for someone. For 5 years I went to a doctor that was weird, my dad has told me that there were some strange things but the results were extremely attractive! Since then it has been a struggle and I wonder if it will always be a struggle....

You might be wondering what is the struggle? my weight.. these days the enemy tries hard to condem me, discourage me and make me feel like a failure!!

I need God and revelation from Him!

Me.......

The simpllicity....

2009-06-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

Here I am after a week well should say really a day (Friday) when I was moved by the tears of the greatest at least thats how we place them .... so much to realized that the greatest are often man of greater failures .. "seven times the righteous will fall and seven times he will stand up" I was deeply touched by the humility of those who have made mistakes and God has lifted them up. I was touched by the gentleness of the greatest to deal with sin and with shame I was touched but I was deeply convicted... deeply convicted of those times when my heart is so full of judgement that forgets the simplicity of Grace and acceptance!

Have thoughts this week many thoughts ... thought about the thousand things that steal the simplicity of loving Jesus the details, the work duties, the people, the looks, the talks, the budget, the noise of people, the noise of competition, and jelousy... and be on time and write it down and.........

There is so much in my heart to think... The future, the people, the poorest, the outcast, the forgotten....... The simplicity of loving Jesus without the religious schedule and requirements that many times puts my heart in prison.......

Normal life.........

2009-05-18T22:46:00.003+08:00

Well here I am I am a married woman.. still sometimes it seems odd... life seems more normal than before people ask me if married life is good!! Yes is good and with the hand of God is the best I think..

Starting a new life with someone is not easy yet is exciting and refining! Is exciting to live with someone that is soo different than you YET so similar and wih the same heart...

I like the house... we have NYC, LONDON & PARIS pictures in black and white in one wall... the brookling bridge right next to our dinning table, the bedroom is decorated in black & White... the ugly bathroom is looking much better with a nice curtain I got in target :) red towels so is getting there...

Well it seems like May is a busy month...call2all..PADTS....friend coming... uffhhh I am tire already :)

Ok...off to sleep... NOt alone :)

Everything seems more normal

2009-03-29T06:55:00.004+08:00

The last 3 months have been the more intense months in my entire life....here are some words that passed by my head:

LOVE- TO GIVE -TO RECEIVE- GOD, FRANK, FAMILY, FRIENDS........
MONEY- GOD IS GOOD!
FAMILY- GOOD TIMES, LAUGH, TEARS, LOVE
MEXICO CITY-KIDS-MY GRANDMOM-LATE NITES- LAUGHTER-GOOD FOOD-FRANK IS HERE-NEW LEVELS-FIZED MY WEDDING DRESS- GOT NAILS DONE-A TIARA AND VEIL
JUAREZ- DRIVING AROUND, BUSY AND CHANGE-CIBELES- GOOD FRIENDS-MY PARENTS FINALLY CAME-GOOD HOTEL
NEW MEXICO- TIRENESS- BEAUTY-GIVING-NATURE- STARS-JACUZZI-FIRE PLACE
NEW YORK-COLD WEATHER, SLEEP IN, BEAUTY TO SHARE, COMPANIONSHIP, LOVE
LONDON- TIRENESS, GENEROSITY, HISTORY, BEAUTY, SMELLS.....
PARIS- SMELLS, BEUTY, HISTORY, I LOVE FRANK, A FERRY A BEAUTIFUL CITY
WEDDING- EXCITEMENT- STRESS- BEAUTY-FRIENDS- A WEDDING DRESS- EXPENSIVE TIARA-POLANCO
FRANK- LOVE- PATIENT- CUTENESS-ADMIRABLE-FRIEND
FRIENDS-GENEROSITY-LAUGHTER-FOOD-LOVE
HONEYMOON-FEARS-LAUGHTER-TEARS-LOVE-TRAVEL-NEW MEXICO, NEW YORK, LONDON, PARIS......

YESTERDAY LOOKS SOO FAMILIAR
TODAY LOOKS SAFE
TOMORROW LOOKS UNCERTAIN YET WITH THE HAND OF GOD THAT LEADS US TO THE GREEN PATHS......

OFF TO SLEEP.......NOT ALONE :)

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2009-02-23T13:26:00.002+08:00

Deep inside of me.....................................

Times.... and not the annoying magazzine!!!

2009-02-19T13:10:00.002+08:00

Time.. this days I have thought about time often I think is time to sleep, time to eat, time to go, time to board, time to get on the plane, time to pack, time to send an email, time to pay tickets, time for a bank transfer, time lost because I didn't make a quick decission, time to meet people, time to talk, time to be quiet, time to cry, to laugh.... this time is not the "Time Magazzine" that is annoying me is just TIME.............

Tired............

2009-02-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

Just to say I am tired...............

and stteping into a land that now seems to strange to me... I know I will be ok BUT will I??

In the presence of God there's fullness of JOY!!!

My time in Seoul was good .... again comfirms that Koreans love pain to be beautiful but I still feel the same even after all the pain.. go figure..

I like it here, I like the food, I like the language and I like the people!

I will miss Asia.................

Off to sleep in a warm wooden floor

Me............

5 De Febrero.....

2009-02-08T00:00:00.004+08:00

It was a beautiful day... the weather was like at home around 17* the nite before I couldn't really sleep worrying that I will be late or that my dress will not work.. what if ..... any way despite all that I woke up early did my nails and left my house with a red & black chinese dress with my Nike shoes... my real shoes were way too hight to walk in the village.. sure this villagers aren't just to walk in high heels.. any way I was quiet in the car.. it felt strange.. I was getting married.. for so long you think I wonder how it will be to get marry.. and here I was wearing a chinese dress in China getting married to a German tall guy :) I was nervous and you probably see it in every picture.. I wonder why people take so many pictures when you are that nervous.. you don't even look that good hehehe

Well I signed the paper.... everything was fast and easy.... this week has been madness that I haven't really got any time to process... but as I see my life what isn't madness??? Poor Frank that has to deal with me... hehehe he is so patient and kind.. the right one for me..

Many emotions are in my heart and thoughts in my mind... is a new season of life with many things unknown and fears but one thing I know...

"THAT I WILL SEE THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING"

Like never before i want to be close to Jesus... I want to become more like Him and rest in His arms that gives me the peace that calms my heart down....

God is good and I know it well........

Off to sleep...

THE VOICE OF TRUTH...

2009-01-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

This song express my feelings in this last days... THE VOICE OF TRUTH!!!! THE SWEET TRUTH!!!!

I Will choose to listen to the sweet voice of truth!!

Me.......

2008...................

2009-01-01T01:47:00.004+08:00

Highlights of this year 2008................

January....
Saw the Allegrettos family... that was fun!!!
Stayed in a Hotel in Dallas all alone for the first time....
When to the Kowloon park for the first time...

February....
A cold winter....
In love with Michael Buble...
Hidding dates in Central & Pacifi coffee...
February 10.... Someone said "I love you too much to not..."
Februray 14.... Frank asked me to be in HIS LIFE.......

March..........
I was given roses........ pretty one
Slept in the 29th floor in a room with glass walls overlooking the HK harbor..
I broke someone's heart :( and mine at the same time...
PADTS 2008...the hardest school I've ever lead...

April.........
MMmm.....dont remember much of this month...

May..........
Roses and more roses......
Frank told me he wanted to buy a ring....me??? very surprised!!
Sichuan eartquake....He left for a week that felt like months....
Lots of text messages...

June..........
First time I don't go on PADTS outreach....
Saturday June 14th, got engaged in the HOPE Well center building in the floor 66
I realized God is good and I love Frank more and more.....

July..........
I left to Thailand for outreach with Vane....
Spent 3 cool days in Bangkok....
Went to Sri Lanka for the firt time.....

August..........
I went to Beijing for the meetings
The Olympics in CHINA
I Was in CHina AUGUST 8th.....

September...........
I went to Kona, Hawaii
Met all this cool people inclufing Darlene & Loren Cunningham
Drove in US soil again....
Talk to Frank for 4 hrs one day...amazing!!
IPM Started....

October..........
Frank came back from Sichuan...
I learned to dance Cha Cha Cha...
I was given a poem a beautiful poem....
I learned the pain of forgiveness....
I learned the sometimes tears are beautiful...
I choose a place for a wedding reception....

NOvember..........
I choose a wedding dress....
I saw a beautiful wedding band....
I Went to Korea....
We got a new flat with a big roof....
We got a new amazing oven.....

December...............
I got my wedding dress....
I was in the kitchen....
I choose how to decorated the bathroom... and loved it....
I got many many gifts.....
Many good talks with Frank........
I got a beautiful wedding band....
IT got stuck on my finger.......
I was mad and took it off........it hurted.....
I realized I am blessed to not be alone I have people that loves me and respects me and believes in me!!!

GOD?????????????????????????????????????? HE IS ALWAYS THERE and CONTINUE TO BE???
THERE, HERE....................................
2009???????????????????????? Scary............Exciting.........unknown........Lovely!
Me.....................

I told my father................

2008-12-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

Things I told my daddy up there:

CHANGE ME..............
MOLD ME...............
USE ME...............
DRAW ME NEAR.........

Sometimes tears bring healing to our hearts...... my sould to declare there is no one else none like JESUS

No one can comfort me like he does!!!!

Even though I want to hold my tears in they seem to run down my face...even though I intend to be ok, my heart aches..........

I know one thing today I told my father I want to be close to Him.............

The many gifts!!!

2008-12-26T00:06:00.003+08:00

December 2008!!!

What a year, I sort of wish I could be more faithful in blogging and keeping this entry... any way!!! This December was special for many reasons stressful and YET full of God, Friends, Love and many challenges ahead!

Realizing that someone loves you sometimes can be painful, scary YET full of feelings that I think God's heart is full of... I could say many things about Christmas today but I realized that Jesus is simple! and that I am thankful for His son and that I am loved!!

We had a small dinner at our place (Frank's now0 and it was great we had gifts under the tree, Christmas music, turkey, Korean food, UK food, German Stollen and a house ful of friendship! I enjoy the eve

My gifts this Christmas: 1.- A big box of chocolates, 2.- A Channel Lipstick- 3.- A Key chain and house's keys 4.- about 1 am- a beautiful wedding ring :) all this from Frank :) plus I got 4 candles, a chandelire (which I wanted for ages) a pair of earings with pearls & a Clinique set for travel!!!

GOD continues to show us more of His goodness to us!!!
TONITE????????????? my heart is thankful for Jesus, for friends, for love and FOR Care!!!!

off to sleep

2008-12-13T23:48:00.004+08:00

I tried to set up this on this website
let's see if it works.
A Way to donate online.... Let me know if it works :)

Thank you all for your support and prayers!!!!!

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An Urgent need to write...

2008-10-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

Tonite? A warm nite in Hong Kong the summer seems to befading away and the autum is just around the corner.. I don't know why but this time it seems like is taking longer to get cooler.. my mind is full of thoughts & some of them I really wish theren't were there.. this days I wonder if I have made a mistake and that if this mistake will cause me dolor... I am confused and I need divine guidance I hope everybody feels this way before taking a big step.... If I see what is in my mind I will be completely overwhelmed so I rather not go there....

Finances, peace, a wedding dress, weight, I dont like it, lonely, tears, I am tired, I am confused, I don't know, what to do?, How?? When?? .................

Off tp try to sleep................

Exhausted............

2008-10-18T23:38:00.004+08:00

Tired......... I am tired...

Sometimes my insecurities are so much in front of my face that makes me want to run away... There are things that I desire yet seem impossible to achieve I need faith to believe and power to do it... I was reading an article about Afganistan and my heart cried for the kids there.. this days tears are often in my eyes.. I need to feel more the heart of God sometimes is just so easy to forget what God feels the routine can be so dead and dry... sometimes I miss the feeling of "Family" and feeling connected... I know I am probably just venting soo no worries.. I will be ok tomorrow!

I need God... I need to believe Him that He is GOOD and that He never leaves us, not forsake us!! He will open the red sea...he will open the way where there's no way.. he will feed the 5,000 with little I KNOW HE WIll.........

Off to sleep :)

The tears the beautiful tears....

2008-10-14T00:42:00.004+08:00

I never knew tears could be so beautiful so deep and sometimes so painful....

I am trying to discover a treasure that has been buried for years... the expectation and awaiting is exciting, frustrating, YET I know the reward will be great!!!

I am learning to risk, to give, to die to self, to persevere, to expect, to trust, to know..............

An awareness of GOD to work in ways I've never seen before...

A great sense of expectancy......

Off to sleep is 1:14 AM

A little piece of heart.....

2008-10-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

Tan solo un adicto,
Un adicto de tu Sol
Y es que con solo un cachito
Un pedacito de tu luz,
Yo llegaria al cielo
O me caeria al suelo,
Por ti amor

Tan solo
Un cachito de tu corazon
Soy un adicto de tu corazon

Pedirle a mi cabeza
Que deje de pensar en ti
Es casi como pedirle
A mi corazon que deje de latir
Mas bien olvida eso
No no repitas eso, te pido amor

Thoughts that are in my mind and rambling around my head...is late and I want to get some sleep... my mom was not home.... I miss my family... Sometimes is hard to open your heart and to get ripped apart.... I love God... I want to go to a jazz concert.. I am afraid to lose... I am afraid to try, I am afraid of rejection.. Again fear crips in my heart..............
Off to sleep ...teaching about the University of the Nations tomorrow :) ..pictures
???? dolphins in Hawaii...

Only if I could................

2008-10-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

If I could protect everyone that I love from being hurt from being cheated, from being stupid I could..........

Sometimes I don't know that I can take the step that is in front of me... I have fear to fail, to judge, to not accept, to not forgive, to not give mercy, to not change, to stay in the same place, to not be more godly, to not love, to have the same vicious circle of life that takes away the beauty of God, to not be aware of God's mercy & love, to not appreciate, to not be thankful, I NEED TO FORGIVE and TRUST but sometimes is hard really really hard...

Tonite?? I awarness of darkness around.. maybe because is grave sweaping day..
my heart feels heavy.....

Off to sleep....

In love..........

2008-10-04T23:40:00.003+08:00

I've always wonder how really felt to be in love of someone... I know I have had strong feelings but today I think I realized I AM IN LOVE... maybe is just what distance do to people, my heart is happy.......... and I realized I DO LOVE Him and I DO want to get married with Him... sometimes doubt crips but I know today without a shadow of doubt that HE is the MAn that God has for me!!

THE POEM.....

2008-10-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

It began as all fires do,
a spark soon ignited into a blaze of warmth and colourful delight.
You held my hand, became my friend,
earned my trust and my future once again looked bright.

Loneliness turned to hope,
emptiness filled up with dreams.
Hunger was satisfied,
and the darkness lit by love's moonbeams.

Tears no longer hit the ground,
they fall on your loving shoulder.
I feel younger,
as our love grows older.

When sorrow leaves me wilted as a sun-parched rose,
your comfort is a river that flows and flows.
The sun's light, the morning dew,
they are all the beauty that is you.

When passion ebbs,
as tides do,
love fills the wake,
and carries us through.

Your strength is as the oak,
but if it is my need you bend like the willow.
My heart is filled,
like a lucky sail with wind to billow.

Harsh cold winters,
wet springs, blissful summer heat, and the fall of time,
They'll weather my spirit,
with grace and peace, your hand in mine.

Our love's sweet creations, joyous children,
blessed am I thanks to God and you.
What greater beauty could shed light,
on the love that came from two.

Love's sweet reflection,
laughing, growing, thriving, learning.
Words cannot express what my heart feels,
how strong my love is burning.

When God took one home,
I felt my heart would never again see the sun.
But you, my love, walked with me, through the sadness,
and together we share the memories that keep our family one.

The lines of age will etch their mark on us
and time will take the strength from our bodies.
But love's brush will paint for us a picture of such beauty,
That a hundred lifetimes could not remove their glory.

I was given this poem... so beautiful that brought me to tears, so intense and yet SO Full of LOvE!!! I Love you............... I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you..

Autum...

2008-10-01T22:17:00.004+08:00

It's seems like the weather is changing like everything around me is... I love Hong Kong just realized how much I like it here....the week busy learning Rumba and Cha Cha Cha.. from a chinese guys...go figure :) is scary to think that is october already I felt like time has gone though my hands without knowing where it went.. things on my mind:

A new house, China, Pride, godliness, shallowness, GOD, food, nice music, I want to exercise, my family, are the fish alive?, a new mop, future, a wedding dress, I am not capable, my skin is soft, I am insecure, I need God, I need wisdom... the world is in crisi but GOD ISN'T, roses, banana republic perfume, Frank..........

Is 10:23 pm and I am ready to take a bath... more later.. the pictures??? painted while a time of worship.. COOL UH??

Hawaii.....

2008-09-28T00:17:00.014+08:00

Pictures from my trip to Hawaii... it was fun, challenging, refreshing, lonely.. I am back in Hong Kong ........

loss................

2008-09-02T01:10:00.003+08:00

I think I lost the thing that I love the most!!!!!!

and my heart hurts like never before...................

me...........

back and gone again...

2008-08-22T23:41:00.006+08:00

It seems like I was just here a year a go blogging about a story of a rose, the pain of lossing my pastor and many emotions in my heart in Chiang Mai Thailand... time has flown 2008 will be a year that I will always remember.... I thank God for what he has given me... Well the school was rather hard but with many lessons to learn!

I am off to Beijing for meetings and then to KOna... my heart aches just to think I am going back to the phone communcation again... never hated the phone as much as I do now.... I will not see frank for 5 weeks again... :( so sad!!! Any way I am off ... tomorrow PANCAKES and MORE.......heheh

14 of June!!!

2008-06-15T01:32:00.006+08:00

With an amazing view to the harbour... Frank knelt down and said " Me harias el honor de casarte conmigo" which means, "Would I have the honor to marry you?... the eve was perfect with good music, good view, good food and a guy that I thank God every morning when I wake up... As I sat there I thank God for His amazing gift to me..... God is a giver a good one...even when I doubt and even when I'm afraid, or when I failed or when I don't do the best YET He still has a heart to bless us!!!

Again one of those nites that is hard to rite what I feel inside... Excitment, happiness.... peace.....Love..........GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

long week

2008-05-29T23:56:00.003+08:00

What a long week... it has been or at least it feels like it =P is hard to believe that the DTS will be on outreach in about 2 weeks... there are many things to think about that I need to leave it at Jesus's feet or I will be soo overwhelmed!!

Thoughts in my mind tonite???

Danger, lovely smile, distance, GOD, China, students, change, frank's fish, Kairos, my family, I want a cat name "angeline", new house, money, lonely, food, tireness, a call, a message, insecurity, worship, yeah is friday, I NEED GOD!!!

and Yes... I do miss Frank :( heheheh off to sleep..

Me...........

2008-05-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

2008-05-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

In someone's mind.... and is not mine...hehehe.............. CRAZY!

Feeling ALIVE!!!

2008-05-06T23:35:00.004+08:00

YES I FEEL ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE REST OF MY LIFE............

IN desperate need of a savior!!!

2008-04-28T22:32:00.002+08:00

In many ways this is how I feel............

the sweetness....

2008-04-22T00:07:00.003+08:00

Some words that had melted my heart this week.....

If I'm far away... not really just Central: "Close your eyes, now imagine I am giving you a big hug"
"You are the best thing that ever happen to me"
"I was blind to not see how awesome you are"
"I love you soo much"

The road of life can be rocky at times YET is always the warm of someone's heart that melts things away.....

To love somebody is to do the best, to remain quiet when you don't want to, to not speak harshly, to die to yourself, to protect, to trust, to believe, to encourage, to need..... and once again the weakness are the most attractive thing for me..........maybe after a year I realized that YES!!! It is LOVE, to embrace someone's weakness is LOVE!

off to sleep..............

This week.......

2008-04-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

Maybe I didnt treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didnt love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasnt died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, satisfied

Maybe I didnt hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
Im so happy that youre mine
If I make you feel second best
Girl, Im sorry I was blind

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasnt died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, satisfied

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind

ME..............

Incapable................

2008-04-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

Yes I recognized that I am incapable to love...............to forgive and to embrace the unlovable.............. to die to self, to embrace change, to accept....

off is 12:07 AM

The dance...The song... The tears... YOU!

2008-03-18T22:52:00.001+08:00

Song lyrics | Everything lyrics

The Pain.. the reward...

2008-03-18T08:16:00.003+08:00

Some words that will stay forever in my heart:

I will do anything for you, if I have to die for your I will die
Life is so empty without you
I feel alive when I am with you
You deserve everything
A sweet dance, a sweet glance, teach me how to love you!
Words are not enough to say I LOVE YOU!!

Even though my heart ached for a nite...... the thought of lossing someone you love is scary, even when you made that decission.... tears sometimes are a good thing...

Michael Buble is the favorite this days.... I don't think I eve said it but I think I am in love and sometimes I just don't know how to accept the fact that someone does LOVES ME............

Here it is..

2008-03-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I am learning things about myself that I didn't even know there were there.. a good thing YET scary but holding someone's hands throught it makes it much easier!!!

Off to sleep trying to receive that YES I am loved!

The roses...........

2008-03-04T00:40:00.004+08:00

I was given roses today.... continue to be amazed.... MY HEART and MY LIFE suddenly feels more ALIVE..............

HIM....not the Yuen long guy....

2008-02-28T01:01:00.003+08:00

Some words that describe him:
Tall
Pinkish
Green eyes ( that if they look at you, they might make your heart jump)
Amazing smile
Great cook (ok at least bread & pancakes)
SIMPLE
Knows about pretty much everything (or at least has an opinion about it)
Caring
Funny
Kind
Servant
Generous
Godly
Gentle
Hospitable
Loyal
Steady
Weak (the thing that attracts me the most)
Smells good (mainly because of Me :P )
Teachable
Humbled
Honest (seriously)
Strong
Willing
Pioonering
Leader

The MAN THAT LOVES Me.................

LIve it out.....

2008-02-18T17:30:00.001+08:00

Hard to live it...............

Me

14 de febrero!

2008-02-15T01:35:00.004+08:00

What happened in a 14 de Febrero del 2008,

Una comida mexicana.....queso fundido y tacos al pastor
Hold nuestras manos por primera vez
Una vista espectacular del malecon de Hong kong
La bandera de China en frente
Un largo abrazo y las palabras TE AMO......... y quiero pasar el resto de mi vida contigo!!
Una noche llena de sentimientos, abrazos, glances, and a happiness that I've never knew before
Off to sleep is 1:48 AM...

A Special Day!!!

2008-02-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

Today February 10..........................

A Special day............I will say it again the weakness of someone are sometimes more attractive than the strenghts!

God is more than a religion HE IS OUR Redemer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Off to sleep is 1:46 AM.....

El mar y las olas...........

2008-02-06T02:06:00.001+08:00

El mar y las olas: The ocean is big and can be scary at times, YET IS FULL OF LIFE!
The waves bring new things,renew and move what needs to be move...the same way God works.... He never stops working on us, NEVER... he never gives up on us ....NEVER..... no matter how big or scary or dark this ocean that I am facing in I know that God will bring with the waves the renewal and the change that is needed.

Fear??? Yes I have and I am... YET LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS.... I WANT TO LOVE TO THE EXTREME............ and I THINK I DO LOVE but not to the extreme YET I REALLY WANT TO!!

Off to sleep after a long conversation on the phone that make my heart jump and stired my spirit to pray!

Is 2:13 AM............must be crazy!

GOD!!!!

2008-02-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

God is the only one that knows the best exit, the best choice, the best place, the best plan, the BEST HE KNOWS IT ALL!!!! SO much an awarness that I want to be close to GOD..... close to his heart.... in many ways I feel like in this picture with my niece.... the ride doesn't seem secure and comfortable YET I am on it and there's no way around, the amazing thing is that maybe for the first time in my life I WANT THIS no matter how scary & uncomfortable it is.... because I know that God is with me and that it will be fun and maybe at the end of it I WILL BE different I will experience TRUST like never before, I will see the world like never before, I might have some bruses from the ride but I know that YOU will be there with me not only YOU BUT GOD too.... I Must believe that the plans that God has for me are like that dessert good and ready to melt in my mouth!

Too many things to think about: Fear of God, Sadness, HOPE, Openess, Brokeness, Sin, Love, 2009, 5 months away, when, where, how, honesty, missing, Prayer, friendship, ministry, children, woman, beauty...............................LOVE

Off for a run...

Wish to be..........

2008-02-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

WISH TO BE................ AT??????????????????? in a warmer place...

Communication...communication!

2008-02-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

Is is hard when we have to express feelings, frustrations, care, excitment, dissapointment, Love, fear, happiness, loneliness, insecurities, plans, desires, future, failures, success YET so necessary to survive in any relationship....

I am trying to learn what it means to express what I feel not soo much what I want to feel or think I feel but what truly is in my heart.... God has been speaking to me about being a woman and what it means to be a woman, I have realized that this part of me has been hidden for a while and coming to discover it is not always easy..

My heart is afraid yet ALIVE........

Off withy my electric blanket in a cold nite in Hong Kong........

The cold winter in Hong Kong!

2008-02-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

So it's cold here like really really cold...the past week we have reached temperatures as low as 5c pretty darn cold for Hong kong! This last week was crazy cold and I had a cold for almost the whole week.... I can't believe how cold it is we even went to Korean BBQ to warm ourselves up!!! Finally the weekend is here... looking forward to sleep and probably stay home...since is so cold outside.
...............................MISS YOU..............................................

words....words....

2008-01-21T14:30:00.000+08:00

I have realized that words have soo much power: power to encourage someone to make someone feel loved and care..... when I want to most run away is when you hold me the best and my heart draws closer to yours... when I look into your eyes I can feel butterflies!!!!

coming back...............

2008-01-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

Coming back.................. excitment....tireness....overwhelm....heart talks... fast heart beats......planning.....FUTURE!!!!!!!!!!! 2008 in many ways will be a year to remember!

Smile........

2008-01-05T13:56:00.000+08:00

Faby smile smile.................need to remind myself that often........

Me???? Missing you.........

Mexico............

2007-12-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

Me...................... what does 2008 will bring???????????

I am confident of this :
THAT I WILL SEE THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING

Off to sleep

Trust.........

2007-12-28T15:04:00.000+08:00

Some years a go I had a picture so vivid in my mind I remember where I was sitting it was July 2001 and I was sitting on the floor in Nepal...it was hot I was wearing a Salwar and got this picture.... it was a girl that was at the top of a slide she was afraid to go down she was afraid to take the adventure that was in front of her....what if daddy was not there to catch her, what if she went so fast that he couldn't catch her.... she took a deep breath and went... while she was going down she thought this is actually fun but yet was afraid her daddy was not going to catch her.. she landed and realized that her daddy was standing right there and she was just fine..... it just took faith to believe and to take a step... TRUST!!! Today I guess that picture is coming to past... I am afraid as I am going down the sliced YET I know that my daddy is right there......
I have a horrible "Mexico Cold" it happens every time I come here...last time was over my birthday :( ... I slept for 4 hrs today I must be tired ...

Humbled..............

2007-12-24T13:58:00.000+08:00

Selfishness is ugly and sometimes hurtful................ Prayer is the engine of things to happen, change and success!

Tired.....

Faby

in a day like today...............

2007-12-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

I wish I could fly far far away! Tired....discouraged....doubtful...........

the beach...........

2007-12-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

This beautiful ocean reminds me once again that my creator is soo much bigger than anything I can face!!! Tried to leave my worries behind the waves.... so much of surrender was taught this week while I was away! Good people, good food, good family, good friends, good GOD! now back to the craziness of Mexico City, I feel good to be here now, I think I have adjusted to the culture and people!
More later..............miss HK and others around the world..including Malaysia :P

I AM NOT AS MEXICAN AS I THOUGHT ....

2007-12-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

Back to the Mexican way!!! Yeah as I was waiting at the airport I realized how many things I have forgotten.... people are loud and touchy ....got a hair cut that I am still trying to adjust... is a bit strange to be here... good to hug my dad..for some reason my dad couldn't stop touching my hair...and telling me how beaitiful I am...must be a daddy thing.... I can see that I am not as Mexican as I thought I was my asian behavior is obvious! I forgot how good it feels to hug friends... to kiss people, to shake hands strongly, to be MEXICAN which sometimes is so foreign to me!

The USA!

2007-12-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

I was brought to tears yesterday to see how much people care and love me.... I drove over the mountain and watched the sunset I forgot how beautiful this place is and how much GOD WANTS TO BLESS ME.... a hard thing to grasp and understand why God loves me and make people love me....

I am learning to slowly receive what God has for me and sometimes is hard to see that God always wants to give us the best!

Well I am in El Paso and I have to confess that I ate Taco Bell yesterday for the first time in my life.... soo against my beliefs!!! but oh well... I even drove myself there... shame on me... I will be here for 2 more days then tomorrow I'll leave for Mexico City! yeAH!!!!!

MORE LATER off to get ready!

This heart of mine!

2007-12-03T06:34:00.000+08:00

The state of my heart:

Can be very fast, can smell very well, can jump at a glance, word and sound!!!

So how was my weekend? Well started with Disneyland in a weird Friday, this last week was good!!!! Saturday woke up at 8 which is a miracle and went to Yuen Long to the post office....walk in Yuen Long for a long time...ate chinese food pack and talk on the phone.................. Ate triple "O"s yesterday!!!

Here some of my thoughts:
God is full of surprises and so are YOU, packing, worship, repentance, long travel, care, is cold in Hong Kong, will be more cold in El Paso, I need a phone card, wow email?,I will see my mom in less than a week...

GOD IS FULL OF THINGS THAT WE NEVER EVEN DREAM TO HAVE!!!!

HE IS THE BEST GIVER!!!!!! and me I am still in awe.................I am trying to learn what it means to really LOVE people!

Off to lead worship...........

Nov 30....................... Disneyland..........

2007-11-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

EFM went to Disneyland today.............here some pictures...........my heart has all sort of emotions that I never had........ Feel at peace and in desperate need of God's wisdom and guidance!

A bit scared of going home..........next year......and really what's next!!! I feel alive like I never felt before!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

November 24....................

2007-11-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

Excitement...........HOPE............Risk...........Friendship..........Love.....
Happiness...........future............Fear..........dissapointment....... TRUST.....
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My life will be so empty without you! Those words made my day today!

Days like today LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND I AM HAPPY TO BE ALIVE! and just like in the picture I am coming out to this new season with a smile..........

Off to sleep tomorrow early Breakfast!

Thanksgiving......

2007-11-24T07:20:00.000+08:00

So this year we managed to have a thanksgiving dinner for EFM..... surprisingly the turkey was good....first time baking pecan pie and it was not bad.... the weather is getting colder like something in my heart and in my life!!

I wish the warm of the spring will come to my heart..........I need to start packing and cleaning and buy gifts and change my brain into a language that sometimes sounds so foreign to me........

What is on my mind today:
Too early and I can't sleep, you are still on my mind, I wake up and God said "I know your thoughts" and I feel peace, Future, risk to be rejected, play the guitar, is cold, diego luna, my mom, phone cards, travel, church, love, glances, what is true and what isn't?, WAITING, the goodness of God, Love to self, movies, schedules, laundy....and again YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Turtles in the Hong Kong park............

The greatest love

2007-11-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

"The greater, the love the deeper the freedom and the bigger the place for you to dream"

Those were the words of one of the EFM students today, I dont know why somehow it went straight to my heart and realized that was she was saying was true.......

To love to risk to give to surrender to dream........... the hardest thing to do is to TRUST!!!!! sometimes I wonder if I would find that place of loving without expecting anything in return without having a selfish ambition to get something to feel something..............

TO LOVE IS A CHOICE................never soo clear like this days in my life!

Sometimes to love is the hardest thing to do.........

Looking ahead....

2007-11-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

People that make my life happy and sometimes complicated.........yet beautiful!! Chocolate and coffee........ a good yet dangerous combination!!
The statement of the day????????????? YES I DO...

2007-11-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

Life???????? sometimes beautiful I am learning things I never thought I could... I am entering a new season that I am sometimes scared to discover!!!
Me...........

The art of knowing yourself!

2007-11-04T01:52:00.000+08:00

Questions that go thorught my mind........is like the wind it reminds me of the wind in El Paso ........... Have realized that I don't know myself I don't know what I want for my life, future and even present..... thoughs that are in my mind:
Patience, Love, Waiting, Freedom, pureza, Nostalgia, a good book, a good friend, surprises, emotions.............the color green, Christmas, distance, friendship, marriage, commitment...GOD

Discovering yourself is not always an easy thing to do..............

Face to the ground............

2007-10-29T11:59:00.000+08:00

Words of truth.......... words of truth...... need to let go things that have been for too long in my heart......walls need to come down, fears need to go, fears of people, rejection, suffering, change, vurneability, YOU...........

It's been 10 years and today I realized that there are many things in my life that NEED TO GO........the memories, the thought of what I think I need.... walls need to come down............. the ideal, the momemtun, the guitar, the boldness, the strong character, the good communicator, the poet, the singer, the leader,

I THINK I AM FINALLY WILLING & READY...................... even though I'm full of fears my father is here to hold me through this...............

The weekend is gone....

2007-10-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's hard to make things clear
Or know when to face the truth
And I know that the moment is here
I'll open my heart and show you inside
My love has no pride
I feel with you I've got nothing to hide
So open your eyes and see who I am
And not who you want for me to be
I am only myself, myself

I don't wanna lose you now
We're gonna get through somehow
I don't wanna lose you now or ever
'Cause baby, I've finally found
The courage to stand my ground
But if you want me
I'll be around, Forever

We all make mistakes, We all lose our way
But we stood the test of time and I hope
That's the way it will stay
It's all up to you to tell me to go
'Cause it won't be me to walk away
When you're all that I know
And I know that..........................

Fly me to the moon

2007-10-26T02:01:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO RUN AWAY................... If someone could fly me to the moon I will say YES in a heart beat!

off to sleep is 2 am.......

To believe

2007-10-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

Today as I was brushing my teeth.... God speaks to me in random ways and at random times.... I suddenly heard "FAITH TO BELIEVE"

I NEED FAITH TO BELIEVE WHAT I CAN'T SEE NOR FEEL................. JESUS WOULD YOU HELP ME IN MY UNBELIEF!!

Off to study...................

the day.............

2007-10-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

My day??? got up too early to practice worship, the weather is really changing and I am ready to wear my winter clothes!!!!
I don't know why I feel so tired I taught and then came home and tried to rest, I have been looking for TICKET but have not been able to get anything...sigh!!! I made a tres leches cake for dinner for Paul's b-day... dealing with people, issues and tireness......... somehow today I feel like something is missing it might just be that I am sooo tired I came home after dinner lay down for a sec the next minute (of what I thought was a minute) and hour and 15 minutes and I slept deeply because when I open my eyes Soyoung and Ahmee were staring at me... I went for a run and did exercise!!!! at least one thing that made me feel not as tired.......... finally I found out why my fish keep dying I have one serial killer...and angel fish (that should be named and "evil) he ate them all....... so now is in a separate place as SY will say he is reciving punishment..hahahahahah

What about the new look??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!

Ok, off to sleep............

pErFeCt lOvE....................

2007-10-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

Thoughts inside of my mind:

It's late, I want chocolate, wake up early, exercise, Korean food, My church, My father's wisdom, my insecurities, my desires, the color orange, future, English, coffee, YOU, nice house, 2009????,mY fish died,
God, Love.....

"PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS"

Off.................

Don't run away when you most want to....

2007-10-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

When I want to run away when I see insecurity in my heart there's always a little light that tells me everything will be ok......

When I want to run away .................there's something that sometimes reminds me that you might not change....

I want to believe, I want to risk, I want to try, I want to desire and maybe for the first time I want something and I don't want to run away....... even when I really feels like to........

By the way the beer???? ...... In Shenzhen I tried Chinese beer for the first time..

Shouldn't but I Am...

2007-10-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

Shouldn't I post this when is 12:38 AM an I am sooo tired and sleeppy..

My heart is ..........EMPTY.................................wish to be full

New house.....

2007-10-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

So we have been looking for a new place to move and it seems impossible so we made that decission that we are not moving....so I have decided to make my house pretty...This week not an easy one..... seems like ages since I came back from outreach yet it's only been 4 weeks.... I miss my students and mu school...the loving mood that we always operated in..... cant hardly believe that I will be starting another school..I must be crazy..... things in my heart are a bit blurrrry..
I have been in Yuen long this week more that I've ever been....I am addicted to YL..
Is not a good feeling being watch...... In many ways I have felt in the corner this week....yet my heart is well!!!
off to sleep....

Birds, fish, plants.............me

2007-09-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

I went to Mong Kok today trying to find the "Fish market" I found all sort of interesting things, I love to live in Hong Kong where there's so much you can see we found the "bird's market" and the "plant's market" a very combination for "Faby"

I got a new aquarium it looks so pretty, it's probably the biggest I've evern had found some fish and still trying to set it up.... there some pictures....

As far other things I am well, I have way too many things to think about I never mde it to the Harbor to see the view....... many things that sometimes make my heart worry............such as:
The future, my parents, my church, marriage, ministry, love, gentleness, harshness, selfishness, distant and lack of faith.

Because I want to....

2007-09-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Long time since I wrote last... there are many things that I have desired specially this last week here is a list:

I want:

Go to a jazz concert
Stare at the harbor at nite
Sleep for a day
Read a nice book
Tell someone I love....
Listen to music
Enjoy a nice dinner in a nuce restaurant with live music
Go to a place where I've never been
Go "fish" & Plants shopping
AND ALL THIS THIS JUST BECAUSE I WANT TO...

Saturday I learned what I would like and NOT like if I ever get married....seems like a wedding is so much more than a pretty dress & good cake ^^

Off to sleep have an early airport run...

PADTS..............

2007-09-22T03:48:00.000+08:00

Yuen Long, pictures,,,,friends!

2007-09-16T13:23:00.000+08:00

My question is how can I survive?!?!?!? That's me kissing the dinner fish..yeah I was acting a bit weird last nite dunno what got on me.... Is funny to be back in Hong Kong...this last 6 months have been interesting yet good...

Off to sleep I am TIRED...........

PADTS 2007!!!

2007-09-14T06:53:00.000+08:00

Some words that express what this school meant to me:
LOVE, SWEETNESS, PLAYFULNESS, FUN, LAUGHTER, TEARS, FRUSTRATION, BEAUTY, CHANGE, SURPRISES, MARRIAGE, KIDS, FUTURE, CHINA, FRIENDS, WEDGIES, FOOD, THAILAND, JAPON, CAMBODIA, VISION, MULTIPLICATION, YWAM, PEOPLE, WORK, LEARNING AFTER ALL I WOULD DO THIS ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE I ENJOYED IT TOO MUCH!! I LOVE THE PEOPLE ON MY TEAM!!!
I WILL MISS THEM TERRIBLY!

Sadness..............

2007-09-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

My heart feels cold, shock and confused........... after receiving the news of 2 of my church members, but not only that......... they were there when I was young, happy, sad and they saw me grow up......now they are not here.......

Death is a strange thing............

off to try to sleep.......

Tears............

2007-08-31T02:01:00.000+08:00

I DON'T KNOW WHY...BY NORA JONES! THE SONG EXPRESS PERFECTLY MY HEART TODAY.... TEARS AND TEARS AND MORE TEARS......

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstacy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

The rose........

2007-08-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

So the story goes like this, picture of a rose and a man wants to hold the rose but the rose has thorns that might hurt him............ pray that the rose will be soft so the man can hold the beautiful rose....... Faby you are the rose.......

A paper with a quote like that was left on my bed.............

Interesting, what is God up to???? does anybody knows??? because I am CLUELESS...

back.............

2007-08-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

Back from Cambodia.... still me with some parts of me gone but still me.... having hard coversations that I would rather not have, opening your heart sometimes it aches and gives you lots of headaches and takes your sleep away..........

IN Thailand........the pictures??? IN Cambodia...I am black!!!!!!!!!!!!

me........

some fun pictures...

2007-07-30T00:31:00.000+08:00

Some fun pictures from our time in Korea, and flying back to Hong Kong playing with the kids and finally yesterday in Shenzhen............

Tomorrow off to Thailand & Cambodia........my time here seemed to fly by without even noticed it..........

Sad......

The beauty of weakness.....

2007-07-24T09:56:00.000+08:00

I found that sometimes the weakness of somebody are more beautiful than the strenghts

Would that be love???

............................................................

Me.

2007-07-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

Glimpses of Tokyo......................

2007-07-07T22:18:00.001+08:00

My feelings in TOKYO................

Tired
With blisters on my feet
Sad & Frustrated....
Dissapointed....................

Off to sleep in a hard and cold floor..... similar to what my heart feels......

questions?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

2007-06-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

Yes!!! in my mind...............................

off to sleep....

Lecture finished!!

2007-06-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

Some of the words for the past 3 months: I am tired...excited.happy...with expectancy...difficult....care....coffee....tears...sweetness....fun...laughter...
prayer....LOVE...pride.....understanding...confusion....hard work...my heart can beat really fast....grape juice...change...purity....students...worry....text messages....Angeline...my hair is long.... Japan...Korea....Cambodia...thailand..I'm Hot....nice....cute...marriage... commitment...... DESTINY!!!............... Enjoy the pictures.......... many things to come in the next 3 months....

Me..............

2007-06-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO BE HAPPY............FREE and COMPLETE...................thinking?? About kids......house.........peace.......YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Does it really matter???

2007-06-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

Does it really matter? To Risk, To give, To Love, To expect, To go, To desire, To want, To like, To need.............. my heart seems to have emotions as if I was riding a rollercoaster......... a good one a fun one and a SCARY one!!

SOMEONE SAID " NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE GOING IT MATTERS WITH WHOM"....

Cleaning the old dust!

2007-05-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

Reality..... people including me struggle with fears, failures, stress & dissapointments. Last week was one of those weeks that God puts His finger in some area in your life that you didn't even know that exist yet is full of old dust... time to get ride of the old dust and even though the cleaning process might not be the most easy step to take I KNOW that at the end is really the best for me!
For the picture... me and Ahmee went to this place and took a quick picture for the heck of it while Soyoung ran to the toilet....turn out pretty good I think....
off to sleep....

Desilusion...........

2007-05-20T23:40:00.001+08:00

NORAH JONES LYRICS

Heart of mine,
Be still
You can play with fire,
But you'll get the bill
Don't let him know
Don't let him know that you love him
Oh, don't be a fool, don't be blind
Heart of mine

Heart of mine,
Go back home
You've got no reason to wander
No reason to roam
Don't let him see
Don't let him see that you need him
Oh, don't push yourself over the line
Heart of mine

The song express the state of my heart.......
Off to sleep

me....my mom....my heart...

2007-05-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

Cool picture I sent to my mom for Mother's day last week.... someone said I sounded exhausted in my last blog.... funny because I never say I was tired but yet the person saw straight to my heart... ^^ my week has been full of weird emotions and a really really busy week with our awesome teacher Jeff... let me tell you this man is like one of those expensive things on the store there is only one of it's kind.. this man: a professional dancer, sensitive to the voice of God, funny, passionate, and a father of 8 kids that lost his wife in an accident just 8 months a go... his life has inspire many of us!!!!! not only to dance but to live life to it's fullness!!!!! For me a man of so much inspiration!!!!

Inside my mind & heart!!!

2007-05-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

Would you like to know what's in my mind today??

My first thought as I woke up was: Jesus I need you! Help me!! then... what should I wear? ....get up... worship...sickness...my foot hurts...class...glances...smiles... nice whispers....coffee....sleep...laughter...I don't like the food...confused....I have too much clothes....hurry up...I can't dance...I like my students...That's so cute....is hot... Yuen Long....my sister... too close makes me nervous...take your mind... care...feelings... frustration....trust....hot choco....cup cakes... I need a Twix....water....rush....soo short coversation...support... LOVE........
Off to sleep.